Confusion

So I have had writers block for literally over a year now. Not sure why or how, but it is something I just kept putting on the back burner. Sitting in Toronto at a bar alone waiting for a friend to finish work, I had nothing better to do but open my journal which has been dead with no new thoughts. The fact that I have had no inspiration for my Entertainment Events project "Big City Life", has also been a huge factor of my mood. Writing about it refreshed me. The rush to do what I love instead of finding where I fit in....

Confusion
Figure out the path to success
Figure out the path to happiness
Lost in the Big City Life
No one to guide you, no one beside you
These streets of confusion
Watching confidence of others walk by in their delusion
I try to find my way in the Big City Life
I fight for my purpose, knowing I'm nervous
Remembering the lessons of yesturday
Brings me closer to you today
I am one of those with the passion
Holding on to satisfaction
One step, two step... Big City Life


Now, it's time to start thinking about production!

Bar Star

No time for wasting time
If you can't keep up, I'm sorry
Pedal to the metal
I live for tomorrows glory

I have been saved
I beleive in good karma
What goes around comes around
Im not a bar star causing all the drama

Attention comes
You don't have to flaunt it
Sexy is whats real
Don't hate, just feel

Drink, laugh and love
No harm in celebration
One thing can lead into another
A summer fornication

Lead yourself
Be smart, and at your own pace
These years go by, but it is not a race
Do it all for you
Not for the guy who told you to
If it's love, he will support who you are
Just don't be trashy, no guy wants a bar star

My Tough Love

What my momma told me is to always move ahead
Every three years you go through a change
Tomorrow you could be dead
Live happy, breath healthy
Everything is okay
Don't stress about love
Your man will come around some day

Follow your footsteps
Listen to what I say
You might not see it now, but you will thank me some day
Be strong and be wise, you only have one chance
Tough love is real love, not a song and dance

I've listened to my momma
She's brought me here today
Through love and war, she made me a soldier... I must say

She looked me in the eyes
Like she was looking into my future
I saw a colour in her eyes and it glowed with pride
Ready to start my adult world and go for the ride

Through thick and thin
I will never forget who I am rooted from
Sometime too much to handle
But without her, I would never win

This is Why I Write

In order to write something, you must feel
The thoughts floating inside your head must give you a rush to express
Everything inside of you must build up and explode
That is when I know my meaning is true

It's not what I have to say
It's what I say to think
It's my voice inside, spilling out with stamped words
My meaning behind open eyes

Without needing to explain to anyone but myself how I feel
It's the visual communication of my inner thoughts for my eyes to read
How I feel, what I think, my humour and my frustrations

Let everything go, get it off your chest and write it down
Write it with tears, laughter or pain
No matter what it's your's, no right or wrong

Cleanse my mind
Cleanse my doubts
Dig down deep to shout it out
I write it down and remind myself of who I am

This is why I write.

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

The bigger the heart
The better the pain
The brighter the sun
The heavier the rain

It takes one day to fall in love
One person to make you feel so rare
One person to light up a room
The moments you have will never compare
It's a beautiful curse
A curse of trust and fear
Emotional connections that make you smile from ear to ear

It takes one day to break the love
To say it's over, and see that one push turned into a shove
Walking down busy streets, with no one in sight but an empty heart that slowly beats
Every person will never compare
Your left stranded, feeling nothing but bare

The bigger the heart
The better the pain
The bigger the sun
The heavier the rain

Such a short amount of love can travel through a large amount of pain
Such a short small sentence can wash away the rain
Three simple words can create a neverending sun
When it's all over, take your heart and run

I Am Lotus

We walk around this life not knowing
We walk around pacing back and forth
Like zombies trying to find their ways out
It's the mud, It's the shit.

We find ourselves figuring a way out
We grow from what we have learned
We start seeing the light
It's the birth of a new you.

We progress into something beautiful
Something we have wanted to reach and grab for so long
The light has created us
You have evolved

From mud and dirty water
From birth and growth made from light
Forming into a lotus

I am a lotus.

From Me to You

This is a message from me to you
I have been slacking on the blog and it has just hit me
I need to get my ass back into gear
I have been busy during the holidays with family, friends and work
It has been an amazing holiday season, one I will never forget
I have gained a lot during these three weeks, which doesn't make me feel guilty about slacking
Family, friends, old friends, new friends and amazing memories
If only there were more pictures
I also have a project I have been working on, which is very exciting
It is a project involving the community of Hamilton
I will be posting about it in a couple of days
So be sure to check it out and get yourself involved if your interested
It will be an event that we will never forget
But no lucid thinking poetry today, just straight to business
From me to you
I hope you enjoyed your holidays
And if there is a member in your family that you haven't talked to in a while
Give them a call and show love and respect
It could complete you  <3